HE Said – Why & How Not To

I have had a lot of “light bulb moments” since starting my recovery. In a lot of cases, those moments result in realizations that I might be making progress. Other times, the result is me feeling overwhelmed. I had one of those moments last night . . .

He Said – The Hamster And The Fish

You know, when you take a hamster out of its cage, and you try hold onto it without hurting it, and it immediately tries to crawl out of your hand, and you catch it with your other hand, and it crawls out of that hand, and on and on. You’re its wheel . . .

He Said – The Truth Hurts

I’m trying really hard to not feel guilty about how much I’ve disrupted her life. We both took pride in the way we (supposedly) communicated openly and honestly with each other . . .

He Said – As I Understand Me

Once again, I’m debating with myself about the notion of willfully giving myself over to a “higher power” for my recovery. As I’ve said before, I’m not prone to placing responsibility for the things that I’ve done, and the things that I need to do, on something that exists outside of me . . .

He Said – Pleased to Meet Me

I’ve thought a lot about, and written about, the fact that I’ve “lost myself” as a result of my continuous suppression of underlying issues of depression, anxiety, insecurity, etc., that were further suppressed by alcohol consumption……

He Said – Humility

The last several AA meetings that I’ve been to have included extensive discussions on what it means to be humble, and what are the benefits of humility in one’s life. The discussions centered on the 7th Step, which states “Humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings” . . .

He Said – The Best Liars

People who are engaging in behavior that they don’t want to stop, and don’t want others to know about, become masters of deception. I think this is particularly true of drinkers, because there is so much they have to conceal . . .

He Said – What’s This About?

This web log started as a dialogue about alcoholism, and will remain so on many levels. My hope is that it becomes more than that. There are many ways to learn the ins and outs of the life of an alcoholic. You can attend AA meetings, Al-Anon meetings, read countless articles on the subject, etc. While I know that alcoholism is a disease, like cancer, I don’t believe that it is autonomous . . .

He Said – Dependency

It’s true. I’ve always depended on other people and other things to cope. Why should I do things that someone else can do better, and I can just rely on that? The automatic thought being that SOMEONE ELSE CAN DO IT BETTER. Why try to cope with those feelings? That’s too stressful, and it won’t get me anywhere anyway. I could just drink, and at least make it SEEM better for a while . . .

He Said – Bottling It In

I was a shy kid. Never really comfortable with myself. Stayed close to my parents. I was very quiet. Not outwardly expessive. A lot of my personality came out through artwork. Whenever I experienced something stressful or frustrating, I would often depict the situation in a drawing, or in some other visual form, as a way to work through it. I was a follower……..